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Not a happy thought

Sad is having someone you see as family make fun of you ... to other people. And not in the nice/ pulling your leg/teasing kind of way. In the mean way.

Sometimes I think I need to extend my chosen family by at least one, because there are days when I wish I had the calming feeling of knowing, "Yes, there are people who would welcome me into their household any day, no questions asked, and would be delighted that I was there for meals." It hasn't been like that for me since the day my grandma died (though technically it hasn't been like that since she moved into the nursing home, but I bet if I'd shown up with the car and said, "Hop in, lady, I'm bustin' you outta here!" she would have gone for it). But in some ways I've never really felt like that, at least not since my mom kicked me out, but she made it clear to me long before the day after I turned 18 (and got the boot) that she was looking to move me on because I was getting in between her and her boyfriend.

Anyway. A little more about me and what makes me my own special trainwreck. I've often felt like people who knew they had that place to go, those people to welcome them are a little bit mentally better off than I am.


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Apr. 1st, 2009 09:37 pm (UTC)
I have a large family -- slightly smaller than it used to be, sure, but still pretty large. Most of them are Italian and they love the old "blood is thicker than water" "family does for family" adages. Yet I can count on one hand the people who would "welcome me into their household any day, no questions asked, and would be delighted that I was there for meals."

Sometimes chosen family was chosen for a reason. Just sayin'.
Apr. 2nd, 2009 07:55 am (UTC)
i can see how the whole people you consider as family making fun of you would really hurt... i think a few of us have been there.
but i do find myself in agreement with the above comment, it's a bit like that with me and my all-embracing greek family (hey, una faccia una razza as the saying goes) and you know... i've often found that the ones closest to you somehow feel more entitled to make fun (i'm not saying it's right - i just think it, unfortunately, happens) and my family is high up there with that. i guess this is due to a belief that when you know someone really loves you/is family you'll also know they never 'meant' to hurt you. which is @@ in my opinion, but still.

< hug >
Apr. 2nd, 2009 02:06 am (UTC)
You've got a place in Portland. :) And my folks are pretty wonderfully welcoming to my friends too. :)

Everything in your neck of the woods OK with the G20 protests going on?
Apr. 2nd, 2009 07:05 am (UTC)
Our building is on lockdown but we're at least a mile from the protests and there's nowhere near enough people to clog the streets that far.
Apr. 2nd, 2009 10:52 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I heard that there were many fewer protestors at this one than there have been in the past.

My folks are in NJ right outside NYC, as an fyi. :)
Apr. 2nd, 2009 08:45 am (UTC)
And..you didn't smack them because? Seriously, who would be so immature as to make fun of you? My seven year old stopped doing that at five!

I hope you know that even though we have a nine year age difference I wouldn't trade you for the world. Luv ya!
Apr. 2nd, 2009 01:37 pm (UTC)
Well I for one was happy with your dropping by the house the other night, a)because I was too worn out to hop into town and b) was lovely to have you as my first official "Room Guest", and the wine and your Nom pound cake made it all Inaugural Like.
Now we know the bus is so easy, know I am more than happy with an hours notice drop-bys.
Apr. 2nd, 2009 02:43 pm (UTC)
I couldn't believe what a cakewalk the bus was - will happily be coming over on a semi-regular basis!
Apr. 2nd, 2009 03:10 pm (UTC)
Don't know if have right number for your new phone. Just sent message. near tears, think I have to cancel France, 4 out and another near drop out. Financially unviable at that point. *scream*
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