2. Write review
3. Clean bedroom
4. Buy food for dinner party
5. Chillax & welcome guests
6. Enjoy myself and avoid thinking about how I've been just as successful at driving people away here as I was in Seattle - after all, I do still have some good and close friends here.
And I do have some good and close friends in Seattle. That was something I learned when I went back: the people I am still friends with, I feel so much closer to them now than I did. varina8, tonyawinter, ms_vermilion, splendid_geryon, I am thinking of YOU and the lovely time I spent with you when I say that.
It's good for me to remember the good friends I do have when I'm feeling low, especially when I'm feeling down because I'm seeing relationships I had fall to dust because of misunderstandings (and only occasionally enmity) and circumstances that are impossible to overcome. I have been really lonely the last few months, but I should remember that I will never really be alone.
But still, it sucks to be the kind of person who hates being alone as much as I do. Party tonight, though, that will be good. :-)