Congratulations seem due to some people for their work in accomplishing this, though I doubt they'll ever see this post. I don't like being around people who are actively shunning me. Being a bunny walking around in a room full of stoats? I really don't like that feeling at all.
On the other hand, this could be great for my budding career as a fiction writer.
Also: found a schema therapist I can afford. What's sad though is that one of the "life-traps," feelings of rejection, seems focused on problems as a child, but I've clearly got problems as an adult, and not with things I've imagined, they are with people who actively tell me (or publicly announce) they want nothing to do with me. With any luck maybe this guy will tell me what I'm doing wrong; but I note the last counselor basically said I was picking the wrong sort of people to be friends with.