Web Cowgirl 衛 思 維 (webcowgirl) wrote,
Web Cowgirl 衛 思 維

New Year's resolutions recap

Last year I resolved to do two things: be happier and not fall down.

While I had one slip that resulted in me barking my shin from my knee to my ankle, I landed on my feet, and I in fact had no stumbles resulting in an actual fall all year. Given that 2010 was the year in which I cracked my tailbone after a fall on ice and had two spectacular ankle twists, I thought I succeeded in this resolution in so far as I stayed upright through many twists and bobbles in my walking.

I was also generally happier. I had another black period this October brought on by the same thing as last October - feelings of rejection (caused by being rejected, this is not imaginary stuff here) and isolation and major questions about what the purpose was of my continuing to live - but it wasn't as bad as the previous year and the rest of the year was much better than the previous year was. I'll keep this resolution for this year - I'd like to have no suicidal streaks at all, please - and see if I can make 2012 a much happier year despite the fact I'm going to be having some serious, difficult to deal with changes on my hands - and these are only the ones I know about. So, I guess, I'll work on making 2012 happier than 2011, but rather than "much happier" I'll just aim for "no two week long bout of destructive self-hatred" and consider that enough of a win if I can skip out on that in the new year.

I think I also resolved to write a short story, but it didn't happen. Oh well.
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