So I have the sadness that I get from losing a friend, weighing my heart down like an anchor, which is taking the spring out of my step. But ... it's not too bad this time, but still noticeable. But the sad that's on my mind now is that I'm going to have to give up Pilates for the foreseeable future. It's been at least 2 1/2 years that I've been taking lessons from Alison but I just don't have the ability to make it through an hour long Pilates lesson right now, or for the last two months, or until this problem goes away. This has been something I have really been enjoying for a while and I hope I can get back to it some day, but there is going to be no Pilating for me, or swimming, or dancing, or much else: just the slog back and forth to the Tube every day, and hoping I can keep my energy levels up enough to manage work.