March 26th, 2013

Sea dragon

Day 2

With any luck, today's sick day will actually be paid as this is my one year anniversary at my new job.

Woke up at 5 AM, even earlier than yesterday. Gave up on going into work. Spent most of the day in bed or on the couch, dozing. Even reading seemed like hard work.

Called NHS direct to see if I could find out when the Setraline was going to wear off. They couldn't help and told me to speak to my GP. My GP couldn't call me back until 6:30 but I could get an appointment at 5:30. It seemed terrifying to leave the house and walk that far, but I geared up for it by getting dressed and taking out the garbage. Then I sat upright for an hour or so. I didn't feel too bad. Getting ready to go out, getting by bags and coat and keys, all felt really normal. And I felt mostly normal during the walk.

However, during the long wait to see the doctor, I started falling apart again, twitchy, nervous, fighting the urge to run back out the door. It turns out a computer error ate my arrival and the doctor didn't know I was there; but (after 40 minutes) when I asked they agreed to let me see her (I think after her normal hours).

She said it will take about 72 hours for this stuff to work its way out of my system, and I was clearly worse than I was any of the times she'd seen me before. She wasn't going to put me on any new stuff for now; just give me time to empty it out. She'll see me in a week.