So I'm taking a break, not just from him (I'm open to dating monogamously at some point in the future) but from dating in general, because I need things to be very level and flat and mellow. I am probably going to have to cut a lot of things out, actually, because ... well, it's six weeks on now, I am still getting hives regularly, and that probably means I've developed a case that's going to last for a while. And what's wonderful and magic about this thing that I have is that I'm exhausted all of the time. I can sit and be quiet and I'm pretty much okay, but more than 15 minutes of just gentle walking and I'm flattened. I was hoping to take tap dancing in January but I don't think that's realistic right now, and I don't think I can go back to ceilidh dancing either. So it's going to be evenings involving more movies and more board games, and more being kind of quiet, but not sitting around the house by myself because that can make me depressed. So do some people want to have me over for stuff like this the next two months? I want to keep from feeling isolated but my acceptable activity types are pretty limited, and I'd like to see about keeping things planned not too far in advance because I need to be able to just go home and lie down if I can't manage. So if you're up for maybe getting a call a day before or night of for something quietish that I can get home from no later than ten, let me know.
I've also said that I'm not going to buy any more theater tickets for the new year until I get better. I know I'll see some shows, but I'm going to do more buying on the day of so I can not have to go out because I've spent money when in fact I'm too tired to be doing things. I am planning on seeing a bunch of things at the flamenco festival at Sadler's Wells in March (I can be optimistic!) but for January no more plans more than two days in advance (er, after the first week, when I'm going to a panto and to a ballet). And I really hope I come back from nearly ten days of trying to do not too much with my uncle and bondagewoodelf and I have better energy levels. I hate feeling like this, and I hate having people tell me to rest up "and get better" as if it makes any difference. "Take it easy on yourself" is probably the most digestible advice and doesn't make me want to cry because all the resting in the world won't make tomorrow any more energy-filled than today.
Anyway, I went back to the doctor for the seventh time today, and now I have a reco to the dermatologist, which might mean I see them in two weeks and might mean I see them in two or three months. I don't know. In the meantime, it's antihistamines and not much else. Oh, but I took my blood pressure this morning and it was 126/77, the lowest it's been in ages!
What else. Oh yes, I went back to my old company (Il Postino) and had Christmas lunch with my old crew on Wednesday and it was just wonderful and I felt really loved up and missed and happy (and was sent home with a mug and glass) - and felt like I'd left the company just in time. And I wrote a little short story about the Mayan end of the universe and how my company was responsible for it and it was retweeted by Rudy Rucker and THAT made me happy when I woke up this morning.
Next stop: Christmas team trip to the Hobbit, because I want to be the best boss ever. And I want to see the Hobbit.