This just really sucks. I know that a bit of the label for what I am experiencing right now is anxiety, but what I am also experiencing is fear. I am afraid.
(Once again, while I realize this is all a bit much for a public post, I believe that somewhere out there is somebody else, either now or in the future, who will read this and find it helpful, either as a roadmap or a history. So I try again to tell the raw truth, the ups and the downs, and not just post happy bunny stuff that makes people go, "Aw, kittens!")
Off to the doctor for another check up in about ten minutes. First we'll see how the panic attacks are coming along, and then I'm going to see what we can do about helping me get an entire night's sleep, preferably during the night and not scattered across the week.
