But I'm lonely this morning. It seems to have a big layer of ill over it, though, "how itchy am I/did I have enough sleep/is my brain jetting out anxiety crap at me" et cetera. I'm actually going to see two doctors this week, one to see if we can come up with a plan for managing the urticaria better (she told me it would all be over by the end of February), and one to talk about general health issues - which I hope means I'll get a better idea what was making me want to pass out last week.
Talked to eglantinedreams Sunday night and she said I'd done a good job at managing a chronic illness, getting up to speed and adapting much more quickly than most people. I hate to think that what I'm doing is managing since I'm just making shit up, but I can thank people like the_kumquat, Ms eglantinedreams and sfred, for kindly giving me advice and also showing me that these things can be survived. I don't know how you guys have borne up for so many years but I do really appreciate you trying to help me get through this.