Now feel so stressed out about how work is handling my illness that I'm about crying at my desk. Really worry they're trying to manage me out the door and I don't see how I can do a good job at interviews with big scary blotches all over my face.

This is what led me to sit there pretending I was okay during a meeting where I thought I was going to pass out last week.

Bonus points: this is not helping me manage my stress levels very well.