I talked about a lot of things ... dealing with too much illness, for example ... but one of the things that is different is that I really don't know what the fuck my life is going to be like in any way, shape or form, in even the short term. Like in August. And maybe in July.
What I am doing is very actively working to keep as many options open as possible so that I can keep my stress levels down and not feel trapped in any one plan. Working soon? Have an interview. Not working for the long term? That may happen anyway. Staying here? I could be buying a house here with J this fall. Moving? I could go to San Diego in two months (who needs all of the crap I have anyway!).
10 years ago I thought I knew what I would be doing in 20 years; this month I barely know what I will be doing in two weeks. I'd like things to settle down, though, so I can make plans again.