Tomorrow I've got surgery scheduled on my foot for a dark spot the doc wants to have out and biopsied. She estimated a two week recovery time. I figure no running (obviously - so I went today) and limited mobility for a certain period of time (as it is on the sole of my foot), though I'm hoping I can move around by the weekend. J is staying home tomorrow to look after me (and to get me home from the hospital) but I could use help/company Wednesday and Thursday day if anyone wants to come by. I'm fantasizing about getting lots of writing done but I don't know how much it will hurt and what kind of drugs I'll be on (i.e. the kind that make me stupid).
So I'll have gone two weeks without any theater, which makes me kind of sad, but I'm going to take the opportunity of being forcibly laid up to do something I've been thinking about for a month. I want to stop taking the sertraline. I didn't have anxiety issues before I was taking it (well, not random ones, just huge responses to any real thing that made me anxious), and I'm hating the way it makes me feel so consistently stressy and fearful. So I'm going to stop taking it (reducing over two to three weeks, starting tomorrow, half as much for 10 days and then down to a third as much for another ten days or so) in the hopes it will make my head feel better. I want to get the urticaria under control, not my head, and the sertraline is definitely messing with my head and making me not feel right (and really not feel employable). My skin reactions have seriously gone down since I left my job, and have nearly entirely gone away since I started the sertraline, but I'm willing to be a little itchier if it means I feel a little bit more like myself - preferably a whole lot more. I hate to think I've been experiencing an additional three months of mental hoo hah just because of the sertraline. Here's hoping that getting rid of it helps my head feel better.
And, oh yeah, here's hoping that the biopsy comes back negative. I really don't want to be treated for cancer on my foot - or anywhere else.