After work tonight we're supposed to go to my brother's tonight to play board games and eat pizza - with my dad. It seems like it shouldn't be a big deal but the last time I saw him was the Big Blowout After Gramma's Funeral. I'm nervous. He's been an *hole to me nearly every time I've seen him in the last three years. Will today be any different? I'm hoping that out of the glare of the public eye he won't feel obliged to draw attention to himself, and if he makes a scene at least I'll feel like I'm surrounded by people that are basically very supportive - Worthy Opponent, my brother, and his girlfriend. I just hate the idea of having to walk out on him again - it's starting to raise my heart rate.